Gouzai

How is it possible to feel so far and close yet not know how you feel I can't be angry though because the thought of you always makes me smile. You brighten the darkest days and help me climb out the deepest graves and I feel so useless when you talk because all I can say is I don't know or it has never happened to me. I guess my only wish is that I can hold you forever while we lay in bed through the day, I love your company and dread the moment you leave sometimes I wish I can just freeze time so we can be together and not worry about it but till that day I'm just happy that I met you.

Again I'm the one left out all alone in a party a couple and even in my own home I can't go ghost cuz I ain't got a room. So there I sit with my head up eyes closed and though i do not see the sounds paint a great picture so I fake a asleep yet dream of you and every time I open an eye all I see is the distance. It may be a punishment but when will it end, there is none in sight because the closer I try to get the faster you run in the other direction and all of this pain I can barely disguise so it's starting to seep through but for now that's enough about me. Let's talk about you

Isn't it the funniest thing that in a single day the thoughts of years ago can come flowing back reminding me of the girl I loved though I look at you now and though the style is different the person is the same and it hurts to know what you couldn't have but hope strikes the heart once again and the smiles back on my face just hoping she notices or I can muster up the courage to do something, what of the friendship, is the thought on her mind still I can't help but try yet there is nothing I can do to sway her thoughts this is my life a constant battle a sort of struggle and so far, all I've done is lost yet I have hope to keep going on.